“Soul Seasons” and the Harvest

Mentorship Magic

Recently I had a mentorship session with an amazing person. In mentorship sessions there is a lot that can be covered or talked about. Topics can are numerous

• discovering your unique gifts and how to use them

• animal communication

• learning your astrology or human design (how to build a spiritual practice aligned with that

• deep dives into your akashic records (and how to do so yourself)

• channeling your guides or Source for insight and knowledge

These things truly make up one root of my great oak tree and there are so many other ways we can work together for your unique desires.

In this case, with this person, we often focus on channeling teachings, pondering on things, or have conversations about beliefs for him and how they can be taught or interpreted for the benefit of others. He will often create and write on these channelings after much integrating and digesting and it becomes a beautiful thing that others can then read. The absolute best part is that I get to experience the energy and the meaning and the visuals (omg the amazing visuals) of what is being shared to him. Making it such a cool witnessing of something powerful and new for both of us.

In our latest session, he said the most fun thing I ever get to hear, “Let’s see what comes through. I’m open and ready for anything!” Which is a huge thumbs up to Spirit and it is so FUN to have that openness and flexibility.

The Doorway Shows Up

So right away I tuned into his energy and what Spirit wanted to share with him today. The first thing that came up was the visual of him and others stepping through a doorway. I could see both sides of the doorway and he was walking left to right through my vision almost like reading words on the page of a book. It held a strong meaning of moving forward.

In sessions with me, especially when I am channeling and not just sharing my experience and knowledge, what I get to see is prompted by your train of thoughts and questions. When you ask something, the answer will quickly come through to me and we will just unravel and move our way through the path of your thoughts. A comment by you will prompt a new thing or a question will act as a plot point on the map of our session's direction. Ever evolving and ever changing depending on your interests, questions, and desired direction of the session topic. It’s how Spirit likes to dance with your interests. Never fear, Spirit will always get their chance to share what they would like you to know.

In this case, my he just allows me to go. To channel and really focus on what’s being shown to me for him and he takes many notes. When he has a clarifying question he will chime in with it and the direction of the information will change.

Over time I have also noticed how the information and energy of channeling will differ for each individual person. To me this makes sense because the sacred space of our channeling was created with a connection to their energy. If the person changes, the information will obviously center around them and the emotion or flavor of the information and type of channeling will change to fit them.

For this friend, I get to see visuals but it’s mainly concepts. Patterns and interpretations and connection between many different symbolic knowledge that he has. It’s a greatly masculine brain type of thing. It’s taken experience to be able to clearly interpret the concepts into words at my disposal. Making sure that the right words are used to embody the best meaning of what I am to pass on.

So when I saw this door and the action of stepping through, the facts started rolling in. These things were one after the other and layered ideas that expanded as we asked questions.

It was a door and he was moving forward through it.

He was coming from one phase and stepping through the threshold and starting another phase.

The phase lasted about 3-4 months (wiggle room is allowed) and Spirit referred to this phase as a season.

The connection between season being a length of time and season like nature's seasons was made.

Then the concept expanded.

Waves, Seasons, Collectives

The season ending and the stepping through a door became something that included the collective.

Then the idea of the collective was divided into two different things. The collective that we generally hear and think of the most means “all of us humans on earth that are connected in love and this human experience”. This expanded into many groups and “collectives” that are smaller in size and experience their own collective themes. They will generally be in the same boat when it comes to their integration lesson or soul’s journey. They could all be healing the witch wound, working on generational trauma of a certain flavor, or just in a similar wavelength of energy.

These groups can contain people who are strangers to each other or soul family that remain close to each other. They can be from anywhere in the world but it’s the fact that they are alike in what they are experiencing that creates a unique collective. These multiple collectives are what Spirit uses as a way to describe these energy group ideas to me.

Think of the ocean for a second. There is one big body of water and it can be seen as our one huge collective. Then think of the layers of waves that climb up the shore. The waves don’t all hit the shore at the same time. One wave goes and retreats and  another wave hits and retreats. The larger body of water is separated into smaller groups of water that form a wave. They don’t crash onto the shore at the same time. Their timing is unique to them. The size of one wave is different then the next. The shape of it is different too. These waves can be seen as mini collectives.

In his mini collective, he had others in his soul family moving through the door with him. His collective “wave” was hitting the shore or passing through the door at a different time than other waves. Should it have come as any surprise that I myself was one of these people to step through the door with him? Probably not lol. We've known we are of the same soul family for a while anyway.

So when Spirit referred to us both (and had me feel the echoes of other friends' energy that are also part of this mini-collective and going through this door too) and said, “You have moved through this season and are heading into the next.” We were eager for more info!

Spirit then went into a further explanation of what a season was. Remember, Spirit had already explained that a season was a roughly 3-4 month phase. This isn’t in stone, there’s wiggle room. I asked if this was the first season or if we had experienced this before since this broader understanding of the experience was not something I remember hearing before.

Spirit said, “You have done many many of these seasons before. This is yet another.”

Spirit then showed me that these seasons are often confused with nature’s seasons because they are about the same length of time and that would mean we would get about four of them in a year. However, these soul seasons - let’s call them - don’t have to link up with nature’s seasons, it’s just common that they do.

It’s also common for them to end or begin around times of great astrological energy like a solstice. Or commonly during phases of the moon. Like around an eclipse or a new or full moon.

Spirit then explained more about the beginning of the soul season. The explanation was mainly for this friend’s situation in which they are in a partnership with a divine feminine. So the masculine and feminine connection was emphasized here. I will be referring to the masculine and feminine energies when referring to either party in this relationship.

It was explained that the divine feminine would be the planter of the seed or the intention of the next soul season. But that this happens about a month before the next season. Remember that there’s wiggle room but this is a general length of time. Meaning in this partnership, the divine feminine could be planting their seed or setting their intention during the last month of their current soul season. This then would lead to the initiation or lessons of the soul season to start rolling.

The seed or intention she planted could be subconsciously led or could be chosen. It will greatly rely on her ability to lead herself by following her intuition and inner knowing.

That seed could be the interest that has blossomed due to an interest in a new seasonal activity, a new challenge she wants to move through, a phase of life she’s started, a new hobby that brings her joy. But it’s the JOY that will sow that seed and provide the direction for that soul season. In other words, the joy is her aligned path and true action forward. If she follows what brings her joy, even in the darker of days, she will find her path out and she lights the way.

She holds the vision, which initiates and chooses the way.

Wildflower Seeds and Soul Partners

Think of it like this… she has chosen the seed to plant in her garden. She chose wildflowers. Those wildflowers have specific things they need to thrive and her current joy during planting, the things she learns while planting, or her future expected joy of having cut flowers at the end of the growing season is what will help determine the direction of her path.

In this scenario, where he is centered in his masculine and is in partnership with her feminine, his role is going to be a bit different.

In partnership, the masculine would be a ginormous supporter and interpreter for the patterns, strategy, thought processes, and planning that would be needed. The masculine's role is SO important because his structure and foundation in himself is a support for her ability to move freely in listening to her intuition. She knows when to move (when it feels right in her gut, she trusts her knowing), he knows how to make it happen (he is confident in his actions and can provide what she needs).

*If you are not in a divine partnership, you can act as both the masculine and feminine for yourself. You always have them regardless. In partnership you may notice that you fall into one of the energies more than the other in their presence.*

So let’s use the wildflower example. She knows she wants to plant wildflowers. She knows they will bring her joy, purpose, and that there will inevitably be some learning thrown in for her along the way.

He can help her with the planning, moving her ideas into form, recognizing patterns of times they’ve planted before and how to course correct, or he knows how to gather research in order to set her up with a foundation of success. Maybe he procures the seeds she desires when her gut says yes those ones! Maybe he provides her with a plan for where it could go for the best sunlight or where they have the most space in the yard. Maybe he just lets her know that he believes in her ability to accomplish the task and supports her in that way.

This is a really simplified example and specific to this friend/clients partnership. Of course you can plant your wildflowers on your own. You don’t need to be in partnership to get things done and moving.

I’ll share an example that’s a little more personal… *I will be talking about moon cycles, menstrual phases, womb cycles, whatever you want to call them. So if you are weird about that, idk.. maybe look into that lol)

My Season of Grief

As you may know (I’ve shared it recently in another email), in early March of this year, my Rottweiler Mila passed into Spirit.

It was a life changing event and I would wish it on no one. I know a lot of you can relate.

Little did I know (until this mentorship session with my friend) that this would be the theme or topic of my soul season that just ended. The lessons, learning, and healing of my womb space and how loss relates to it.

I started my menstrual cycle the day she died. Right on the day.

The symbolism of this is not lost on me. The menstrual phase is generally referred to as a death phase. Where we purge and release and go deeply into emotionally nurturing the womb.

I am someone that is happy to have a cycle because  like many people out there, my cycle has never been “normal”. 

However, when I do get it, I celebrate it. I feel pretty and feminine when I have it. I think for me it’s a reflection of my inner emotional landscape. It tells me a lot about myself and what’s going on. Track yours if you have one. It’s so important!

So I pay attention and I’m always working with my womb.

Anyway, I bled the day that Mila died. I bled the next month in my grief. Then I didn’t bleed for 4 months.

That tells me a lot. It didn’t initially, but remember, this season for me was about my grief and Mila turned out to be only a part of it.

The loss of Mila was yet another example of what my body was trying to express to me. When I didn’t bleed for 4 months, I wanted to get a deeper look into it.

And I did go deep you guys. Deep into this season of mine. I went so deep within my body, my grief, my akashic records, into the depth of my initiation with the dragons (remember I’ve been in that initiation for over 630 days or over 20 months) and I did the WORK.

My emotions said ~ Feel. This is grief, this is loss, this is feeling unsafe.

My body said ~ It’s in your heart, your womb, your ovaries.

My guides said ~ Go deeper, go back further in time. Look there.

My shadow said ~ Look at what you don’t/didn’t want to happen.

My mind said ~ I have pieces but not the full puzzle.

My dragons said ~ Let us show you something new.

I was led further and further back in my own life. Following the trail of loss. Noting that when a loved pet had died or a friendship/relationship ended, that I felt the same feelings - grief, loss, feeling unsafe.

I noticed a pattern of BEing. I noticed a pattern of reacting. A pattern within my emotional landscape, a pattern of hurt. Inevitable because such is present in life but the problem was how my body and psyche were holding it. How my body was interpreting it as danger and a lack of safety.

The Deepest Healing

I went deeply into my Akashic Records, using it as a space to work in. I often will use my records not only as a place of knowledge gathering but initiation, healing, and transmuting. I recovered memories of when I was very young which helped me later put pieces together.

Again the patterns stood out.

I went back to find the origin of these feelings. I first asked my body: “Are these patterns linked to my cycle?

Spirit said, “Yes.”

I’ve never ever had a “normal” cycle. Was this pattern in effect even before my first ever cycle.

Yes.

I asked myself while in sacred space: Where did I first feel these emotions so strongly? What moment stands out to me when I feel into the vibration of the grief, loss, and feeling unsafe?

I was immediately thrown back to when I was eight and many scary things happened at once.

First, my mom was very pregnant with my youngest sister. She had recently slipped on a dog toy on the stairs and broke her tailbone, weeks from giving birth. The dog toy belonging to the new beagle puppy that she got for us. Then while she was pregnant, with two kids under eight years old, a new puppy, and working, her mom died from a brain tumor.

I got to revisit the moment where she told me that grandma had passed. I remembered it all and was able to sit there on the steps next to my younger self and be an energy of support in that time. I truly believe time is irrelevant when it comes to being in past or future spaces as an energy. I was able to comfort young Lexie and offer love that radiated into all areas of my subconscious and psyche.

The experience of my grandma’s death was very new to me. I hadn’t lost anyone yet. Back in this memory I was able to feel the emotions of my younger self and the echoes of loss with my mother. Understandably, her attention was on her mom, her pregnancy, and her own pain with her tailbone injury. For an eight year old kid’s mind there was an awareness and feeling of loss with her attention not being fully on me. A mother’s perceived split intention is a tough thing for that kid. I completely, as an adult looking back, understand the circumstances but you can’t prevent your psyche from its perceptions.

Along with the split attention from my mom. I had lost my soul family, the matriarch of my mother’s side. She was exactly the type of grandma that would have been so perfect to have at my side as I grew into my intuition and understanding of energy. The loss of her has echoed through my life these 21 years since her passing and I knew that still feeling raw about something I didn’t have a full grasp on as a child was like a huge beacon to show me where to look deeper.

There were so many connections and layers connecting my womb health with loss that I could spend so much time getting into them. There’s a lot to say, especially since many of these things were ones that I revisited starting from eight years old.

That feeling of loss coming back to such a pivotal point in my life and the life of the people around me was such proof that there was generational healing to be done here as well as in my womb space.

Spirit helped make it clear that within my subconscious kid mind, there were beliefs that had taken root from witnessing the loss. Beliefs related to the womb space and the lack of safety of pregnancy. My body’s response was to say “let’s not do that” and shut things down to protect me.

And because this happened pre-puberty, I feel that this loss was the biggest reason that my cycle has been irregular from the start.

The crazy but amazing part is that this also has been confirmed by my own trusted health people. With a wide array of tests, tools, and wisdom, they’ve found vibrations and frequencies of grief, guilt, and loss in my ovaries and womb space. What a confirmation.

My emotions said ~ Feel. This is grief, this is loss, this is feeling unsafe. - And we looked at those emotional patterns.

My body said ~ It’s in your heart, your womb, your ovaries. - Confirmed in many ways.

My guides said ~ Go deeper, go back further in time. Look there. - Brought to the origin moment of these deeply rooted beliefs that shape my physical landscape, the loss experienced at eight years old.

My shadow said ~ Look at what you don’t/didn’t want to happen. - I didn’t want to lose my grandma, I didn’t want to feel alone. I don’t like that I’ve lived without her presence.

My mind said ~ I have pieces but not the full puzzle. - By following the trail I found more pieces.

My dragons said ~ Let us show you something new. - Went further back than I thought I’d have to go to find the origin.

My season has been about grief, loss, health of my womb space and all the things woven between that are too numerous to share.

When I confirmed what I thought I knew with a muscle test from my naturopath, she confirmed it and gave me a frequency tincture (a tincture charged with a specific frequency) to aid my body in processing the guilt and grief while healing in the records later that day.

I did the work, continued to do the work, and after four months of not bleeding, I bled a week later.

Three days after my cycle was completed, I had the session with my friend where we were shown walking through the door into our next season, this one being completed.

Harvest Time

Remember how I mentioned that the next season’s seeds were being planted about a month before that next season even started?

Remember also how I said that the chosen seed would be something either chosen or subconscious? Perhaps there are new interests or hobbies or callings that would determine the next season?

I also said that some of these cycle changes and seasons start or end around astrological things…

“It’s only by following her intuition and inner knowing that she’ll find her next season.”

I felt so strongly that my theme for this current season was focused around a harvest. A harvest of my inner work success coming to fruition.

Is it any surprise that my announced update and shift in my business happened on the New Moon Solar Eclipse in Virgo? Or that I am feeling like I am harvesting my skills and energy to help pivot my business into matching the current version of me?

Only time will tell. I am excited to explore this season and I’ll be sure to update you when it aligns: